I’ve jumped hundreds of realities,
Since you left, years ago
I’ve been on so many adventures,
And I’ve seen so much on the road.
I want to tell you all about it,
But you’ve been gone for so long,
You stopped listening to me a while ago,
Said you preferred to be alone.
I want to tell you how I moved on,
And how I’ve found another home,
How I don’t look at our pictures or
Search for our melody through radio songs.
Mostly, I’ve felt like I lost a good friend,
That I wish I could still talk to you even today,
I’d tell you all about my dramas and mistakes,
And you’d probably nod and say
“Grow up, you are too old already”
I’d smile and then I’d respond,
“We both know I can’t do that so easily,
You were the adult for us both.”
We don’t have a connection anymore, I know that
And it took me longer to live and go on,
But you still visit my daydreams sometimes,
And I have your memory stuck to my brain wall.
When we spoke in my sleep for the last time,
I told you “I’ve got it, you don’t have to worry anymore,
I’ll make new memories and love a new person,
And if they leave I’ll move on once more,
There will be other people whom I open the door for,
But I won’t replace you, that’s for sure.”
You said “My hatred for you is finally gone,
And I hope you’ll be happy with another soul,
But I know you can make it without me,
That I don’t need to hold your hand anymore.”
So you let go of me,
But it was not painful,
Just a bit bittersweet,
Remembering how we were,
We smile, and then I turn around,
To wander into the unknown,
I don’t look back, but I hear you,
Whispering a faint “Take care”,
And then starting your engine
Taking off for good.
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