You said
“I will never forget you.”
And all my progress went to shit,
I acted like I didn’t want you,
But in fact, I wanted to scream.
You said
“You’re going to be so happy,
I picture you with a loving husband and two kids.”
I wish I told you
“I wanted you to make me happy.”
Instead, I only said
“I never want kids.”
I think you lied, or maybe you were joking
About remembering or missing me,
Because you never seemed too interested,
You never seemed to care enough to fight for me.
But I did, so I tried to excuse you,
For all the games you played,
And the pain you caused me,
And every time you said you cared, I believed it
And I tried grasping your hand, but it was cold.
You said I tempted you and tortured you,
I think you wrecked my soul with your words,
And I wish I would’ve had more time with you,
Maybe we both would’ve fallen in love.
But it’s too late now, and our communication
Was based on fantasies and stories about other worlds,
So we misunderstood what each of us was saying,
And instead of love, you taught me
How to see my worth.

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